Happy New Year! - Resolutions, Visions & Affirmations

It's a NEW YEAR??? Honest to God, I never thought I would make it through 2009. I started this blog June of 2009 in an effort to save myself during a time when I felt completely lost. Now, the year has passed and I am still pretty lost. While I have more perspective on who I am and who I want to be, and can see my life slowly coming together, fear and confusion still plagues me and I am still trying to hone in on the exact path I would like to take. To be completely honest with you, I don't think I have ever contemplated ending my life as an alternative to living life on this planet so many times. Humanity scares me and my responsibility to humanity as a member of the human race scares me even more. I know this sounds dramatic, but if I bulleted every woe of the 2009, you would no longer be wondering how the most unforgivable of all acts popped into my precious head so many times; however, haven't you ever just wanted out?

For those of you who have stated to worry about me or think that I am being a tad ridiculous, I would say let it go for the following reasons: 1) It's not a crime to have suicidal thoughts and it doesn't make me crazy, 2) I am alive and well, and 3) I am determined to be my possibility and to live a life and to be a person that I absolutely and completely love.

Do any of you ever write out resolutions? I wrote out mine for the first time that I can actually remember in recent history last year, and despite the fact that I didn't keep my resolutions in plain site, to my delight, many of them came true! This year, I transferred the items that I still yearn to accomplish onto my 2010 list and compiled a new set of resolutions. In order to stick to my resolutions, I am kicking off my first 2010 blog post with a public posting of my 2010 Resolutions, Visions & Affirmations. I welcome you all to post yours as well :)

Happy Happy New Year!

xoxo
R

2010 Resolutions, Visions & Affirmations

I. Work & Career
• I will make my dreams a reality! I will hone in the company of my dreams and START IT! Enough bullshitting.
i. My company will have something to do with India
ii. My company will have a non-profit angle that benefits young women in India
• Emotions will not run or affect me or my career
• I will continue to network globally

II. Finances
• I will think bigger than paying off my debt!
• I will be debt free
• I will start an IRA
• I will start saving $50/paycheck and increase the amount gradually
• I will be independent & financially responsible
• I will distinguish between “wants” & “needs”
• I will budget, eat out less & cook more!

III. Relationships
• I will listen more and talk less
• I will stop being a meaning making machine
• I will be more considerate, compassionate and aware of people’s feelings
• I will be a better daughter, sister, friend, girl friend, and mother
• I will not shut people out, instead I will act with authenticity and integrity and fearlessness

IV. Health & Fitness
• Working out will be a priority
• Isagenix will be a priority
• I will drink infrequently and responsibly
• I will eat more fruits, vegetables, and fish and less red meat.
• I will NOT eat beef
• I will support my friends and partner in their efforts to be their best selves

V. Recreation & Free Time
• I will read 1 to 2 books a month at least
• I will visit more museums and take advantage of free NY events
• I will learn a language
• I will travel to a foreign land, hopefully two or three!!!

VI. Contribution to Larger Community
• I take a stand for humanity and stand as a member of one nation not as an individual
• I will be active within the Acumen Fund NY Chapter and fundraise aggressively
• I will assist Zoe in her efforts to advance the Women’s Education Project
• I will partner with an Indian non-profit that benefits Indian youth and do whatever I can to help