Day 2- Negative Thoughts Overwhelm Me

The opportunity to self-reflect is never something I get excited about.  Thank god for my puppies, because without them at a time like this, I think I would die from loneliness.  I should be rejoicing in my new found freedom, but instead, find myself dwelling on the negatives that burden my current situation.   

So, since I struggle with meditation and desperately need to quiet my mind I am going laundry list the crap that is plaguing my head in an effort to find peace today: 

1) Why did I chose to live in a city in which everyone that I know is hopelessly broke and w/o savings even though we all make good money?  

2) How did I manage to get duped by yet another shitty fashion house? Why didn't I do more research? I seem to be the only one in the entire industry that didn't know what was really going on--it's infuriating! 

3) Why when I lived in LA was I able to work out on a regular basis and eat well and bounce btw a size 4 and a size 6, but can't now? 

4) Why does friend drama find me or better yet, is it me creating the friend drama?  

5) Why do I feel sad being home, when I would feel more sad being trapped in that office?  

6) Why can't I allow myself even one day of absolute bliss for taking a leap of faith and quitting?  

7) Why didn't I listen to my parents and pursue a more lucrative career path?  

8) Why am I obsessing about marriage when I could live without it?  

9) Will I have ever have answers to the questions listed above? 

10) Will I ever be at peace or satisfied with the life I have created for myself?  

11) Why isn't PRIDE on the list of deadly sins? 

xx

R